univers peu le mien

After our last arguments, I’ve realized how different we were. And you’re not like the one I’ve always imagine of, and I have no idea with who you are now. You always played easy on me, everytime you knew I praise you so much. I’m tired living in your ego world, you always being defensive and you always put me as the immature one. 

It’s not always being a mature, but it simply called ‘appreciation’. If I’m an immature, I won’t stay, I won’t even care with your problems, attitude, I won’t be the one you always count on, rely on, second brain in every problems and I won’t be who I am now to you. You always sees things from your side, but never care about mine. You are different than most people at your age, but doesn’t you are good in everything, doesn’t mean you are wise in every phases and doesn’t you are right in every ways. Most of your wise words only apply as a word but not a complete action.

I never say that I’m always right, but atleast I know exactly how to make things right for you. I always tried to understand all your excuses, I always tried to accepted every situation and condition of yours. Because I’m simply wanted to give you all my best. I’m trying to be better and better for you, I had my mistakes by accused you with negative things and I never denied how unwise I am back in the days. I don’t wanna be that person anymore, person who live in her worst past everyday till get blinded with how good the present is. Well, this is us maybe. We always being in the wrong time, and I have no idea will we have the right time oneday. When everything seems easier, when you complete me and so do I to you.

Guess it simply just a mystery of future. I love you, I do. But this time around, I have no idea should I still love you like I always do or just simply love you as the sweetest past I had. Right now, All I wanna do just learn to live all my plans and dreams with ‘If, there’s no us’ in the future.

Bye, N.